We all have those days I guess... Right?
First and foremost I've been a singer-songwriter since age 9, when I first picked up a guitar and created my first songs. I performed in several places and countries, sometimes as a solo artist and sometimes as part of Matthews Southern Comfort or as backing vocalist for Canadian troubadour Shannon Lyon. Lately I've not been performing as much at all because I just want to do what I'm good at: write music, play and sing my songs. Finding a stage and audience that can truly appreciate my melancholy, quiet music has been tough and I quit playing at busy bars or other unsuitable venues that don't offer any fee. As with many creative jobs it seems hard for outsiders to understand why we would ask money for our skill and our services, same goes for drawing comic strips. And I'm not going around trying to convince people I'm good enough, begging for a paid gig, so I just stopped altogether. Conveniently, at the same time, I had a writers block for about a year or so. Too much had happened, relationships had ended and it was just all too much. By the time I did start writing songs about it all I wasn't able to sing them 'cause I'd start sobbing each time. It was too fresh and one can't really sing and sob at the time so I gave in to the nothingness. And then, when once in a while there is an opportunity that offers itself to me, like playing in a forest at a summer festival or the chance to play at an intimate living room festival, I take it with both hands. Last Sunday I played at a festival that took place in over 500 living rooms in 15 cities around The Netherlands 'Muziek bij de buren'. It was so was wonderful to have a really attentive audience listening to my newest songs, the songs I wrote in the past year and a half and that I could never play without crying. It's a blessing to feel I've worked through all the feelings and these songs are ready to go out into the world to be heard. I taped a couple of songs for this recent performance. If you are curious click on this beautiful photo below, made by Lotte Brouwers, and it'll take you to seven song videos. ♥ If you liked a song please do like the video for me and if you want to stay updated on my music videos just hit the subscribe button. Until next time... (Click here if the photo link doesn't work)